His goodness

I haven't written in awhile. Partly because I've been focusing on my book and at the end of the day I am just out of words. But suddenly, like a fresh renewal I find myself bursting with thoughts and emotions that I can't contain. Must. Write. 

It's been a crazy whirlwind this year and I must confess, I was defeated. I lost hope. I lost vision. I lost desire to serve. The flame within me had flickered and died. I was so focused on what I was lacking, so consumed by the injustice surrounding me that I lost sight of anything good. 

Well as we sang at church this morning, I focused in on the words of a song I had sung so many times. Only today I grasped onto it and claimed it. 

"I will remain confident in this; I will see the goodness of The Lord."

I decided in that moment enough is enough. I WILL see His goodness! It's time to shake free of the negativity and grab onto the promises of God. 

The speaker at church, Joe Boyd, said sonething that really resonated with me. He said we have to let go of our brokenness in order to reach out and grab hold of what God is offering. 

The speaker asked "what is it that you are holding onto?" For me, it was past failures, insecurities, and basically really stupid stuff. Once I realized that, I felt foolish. God has something more for me, something bigger and better than I can even imagine. He's offering it to me, but my hands are full of past mistakes and regrets. 

I'm choosing to let go. I'm choosing to see His goodness, to lay claim to His promises. 

So...what are YOU holding onto? I can guarantee He has something better.