Shayla and I love the movie Bridget Jones' Diary. There is this scene in the beginning where she is crying the blues about being over 30, overweight, and single. She talks about if she doesn't change soon she fears she'll grow old and die alone in her apartment, eaten by dogs, not to be found for several weeks. Then she breaks out a bottle of wine, checks her messages..."You have no new messages," and eventually breaks out into Celine Dion's All By Myself.
I laugh every time because I have had many of the same thoughts. The movie makes me laugh and points out many of my own desperate moments. If you are anything like me, you have probably felt similar at times. You have these weak moments where you second guess everything and think the worst about the future, and you end up singing a few bars of Celine Dion yourself. I've have numerous moments like these and usual it causes me to do something out of desperation and live to regret it. Take most of my past relationships for example. I jumped into some of these relationships just desperate for a relationship. I justify things and compromise so much. Then I'm so heartbroken when things don't work out. There have even been times when I have been angry at God for not allowing it to happen.
Well, God used Beyonce to talk to me this week. Yes, you read that right ha...Beyonce. I was listening to the radio which I don't do very often, I'm very satisfied with my iPod and pandora. I heard Beyonce's song "Best Thing I Never Had." She says, "Thank God you blew it. Thank God I dodged the bullet...honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had...Thank God I found the good in goodbye." She found the positive in the heartbreak.
Each heartbreak was God protecting me. God came to my rescue. He knew that those guys were not right for me. He had a bigger plan for me. Sometimes its hard to see so soon after heartbreak, but after time I look back and I think "whooo, so glad I didn't get stuck in that relationship!" I really am glad that I have been able to see the good in goodbye.
awesome tan, Your mom always said, God is saving you for someone special. He loves you too much to even let you mess up with the wrong one.
ReplyDeleteT anya lynn whats wrong with being single? I love it................ In this da y an time play the field you will get tied down soon enough unless u find a man like J.C. an he is one of a kind !i loved yr grandfather with all my heart but that whole 45 yrs i wanted to be SingleLOL talk about dancing at a wedding i danced at a funeral almost. LOL just kidding of course G.Ma
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