craziness

Well...I finally obtained a second job. My first one, although fun, only gives me 16 hrs a week. At that job I am a sales rep for Motherhood Maternity. I go into their leased department in Macy's and handle shipments, consolidations, merchandising and markdowns. I like it. But I needed another job.

So this last week I started as a server for Tami's Cottage and Tea Room. When she interviewed me she was thinking of putting me as a cook for their breakfast but I guess decided against it and is starting me out as a server. In my head, I needed money and tea rooms make good money. Now I've been asked by several guys recently what a tea room is exactly so I'll save you....its a place where grown women go and sometimes dress up and where hats and play tea party. We had several women who come in to do just that and we have to appease them and play along, but mostly people just like good tea and fancy sandwiches. Well, I forgot about several facets of my personality. I don't move quickly. I'm a thinker. I contemplate every move before I do it. Not good. I'm also very forgetful. You can tell me something and I'll forget ten seconds later. I can remember something in detail from ten years ago, but not what you just said. Also not good. I'm also pretty much blind in one eye and it really messes with my perception. This is really not good when I am trying to reach over glasses or to grab a glass. What was I thinking? Serving tables is not a good job for me whatsoever. I have survived week one without incident. I have a much greater respect for servers. Much greater.

I also was hired for my first official cake job. I was hired to make a cake for a 3 yr old's birthday party. I made the bottom tier per request chocolate shortcake with German chocolate filling and a fudge frosting. The top tier was also a request...Pretty in Pink Strawberry and Champagne with a whipped strawberry filling and white chocolate buttercream frosting. It turned out pretty good. The mom loved it. The little girl, Jewel, loved it. All's well.

To add to my crazy week/weekend...Shay and I went to our first rodeo with Jim and Sherry. I had so much fun. I have always wanted to go, but growing up in South Florida and then moving to Boston doesn't really make that possible.

Oh there were cowboys EVERYWHERE!!!! The horses were so beautiful. I love looking at them and I wish I had one of my own, but I'm too skittish to actually get too close. I've ridden a couple times in my life and something bad always happens. I get too nervous ha. I take after my mom there. The bull riding was intense and so much fun to watch. The worse part of the whole night was during the drill team's show. They had this routine where they turned out all of the lights and the horse and rider were wearing colored lights and they would run patterns in the dark. It was really cool to watch until right in front of us it looked like two horses collided and all we saw was a tumble of red lights. It looked like they rolled and the horse possibly could have rolled over its rider. They stopped it immediately and had to get the EMT's out. They didn't give us much report on her throughout the night but we were at least told she was conscious and talking.

Well that was the craziness of my week. Pray for my new job. Pray that I can move faster, remember things, and see stuff. Pray that I can make some money and be able to pay my bills and such. And pray that I can be a witness to both of my jobs.

I also wanted to announce the debut of Shay and I's new site. We will be unveiling it in the very near future. It's called Apron Confessions and its a site sharing our adventures in the kitchen. I've also been making some aprons that will be going up on etsy at the same time. So I hope all of you are ready to do some baking and cooking because I am.

Have a good week!

good in goodbye

Shayla and I love the movie Bridget Jones' Diary. There is this scene in the beginning where she is crying the blues about being over 30, overweight, and single. She talks about if she doesn't change soon she fears she'll grow old and die alone in her apartment, eaten by dogs, not to be found for several weeks. Then she breaks out a bottle of wine, checks her messages..."You have no new messages," and eventually breaks out into Celine Dion's All By Myself.

I laugh every time because I have had many of the same thoughts. The movie makes me laugh and points out many of my own desperate moments. If you are anything like me, you have probably felt similar at times. You have these weak moments where you second guess everything and think the worst about the future, and you end up singing a few bars of Celine Dion yourself. I've have numerous moments like these and usual it causes me to do something out of desperation and live to regret it. Take most of my past relationships for example. I jumped into some of these relationships just desperate for a relationship. I justify things and compromise so much. Then I'm so heartbroken when things don't work out. There have even been times when I have been angry at God for not allowing it to happen.

Well, God used Beyonce to talk to me this week. Yes, you read that right ha...Beyonce. I was listening to the radio which I don't do very often, I'm very satisfied with my iPod and pandora. I heard Beyonce's song "Best Thing I Never Had." She says, "Thank God you blew it. Thank God I dodged the bullet...honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had...Thank God I found the good in goodbye." She found the positive in the heartbreak.

Each heartbreak was God protecting me. God came to my rescue. He knew that those guys were not right for me. He had a bigger plan for me. Sometimes its hard to see so soon after heartbreak, but after time I look back and I think "whooo, so glad I didn't get stuck in that relationship!" I really am glad that I have been able to see the good in goodbye.